Sometimes...

Sometimes I just need a good cry. Like today. And now I want to cry all over again?

There are so many things stirring up these emotions inside of me...

Graduation....the ending of high school, starting college, saying goodbye to amazing people, the fear of losing touch with them, the fear of being forgotten, the fear of everything changing on me. I hate change. I've never adjusted well to it. I do well on routine, on making plans for myself and to-do lists.

I feel like everyone is so caught up in their own thing, what they need to get done, where they're going for school, their life...and figuring everything out. And we don't have much time left together and I'm realizing that even though they're still here....it's like a lot of them are already gone. In the sense of mind, I mean. I've grown attached to these people in so many ways, in such a few short months. Less than a year or so it seems....And I'm scared. So scared. And I miss them all. I miss them even though I see them everyday.

And I just...miss things in general. Life moves fast. And I'm scared, excited, sad and nostalgic.

I just need to breathe...I just want everyone else to take a break and take a breath with me...