I haven't blogged in weeks and I only have questions:
When will we get our next time limited conversation?
Where are you?
Are you thinking of me too?
Are you okay?
What's going on in your life?
Why are you punishing yourself?
All questions that cannot be answered.
I've never known anything so painful. So much more than physical pain. Loving someone with such a distance and no communication is pure torture.
18. Aspiring Writer. Book Devourer. Full-Time Nerd. Disregard my obsession with TMI Series, Ke$ha, keys and glitter. I'm totally normal. x]
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
I need you here, but you're always so far away;
Two people who love each other, they shouldn't have to be separated.
I was in Willmar, MN Thursday-Sunday, visiting my dad. My whole family of five in a one bedroom apartment. Interesting. That's all I can say. But it was good to spend time with him. Seeing my family all together again reminded me of how much we rely on each other. It was heartbreaking to say goodbye to him. I wish he could have gotten in the car with us and went home. Because he belongs here.
The sad thing is, we all believed he'd be back in the next few weeks. He had an interview at a job in Duluth. He was told he was the number one candidate. That they were going to pick him. And that didn't surprise me. My dad is the most kind, helpful, dedicated and hardworking person. I admire him so much for it. So it was hard to come home from work last night and hear my mom say he didn't get the job. That they picked someone else. My dad cried. He rarely cries.
It's not fair to them. I'm not religious. Not in the least bit, but this is something I'm going to pray for.
And I miss you. Where are you? Two weeks. I guess I shouldn't be counting because that drives me crazy. I was sick the one time I got to talk to you and I don't even remember it. Usually you get on a few times a week. And the hurricanes....I hope you're alright. I shouldn't worry so much, but I miss you.
I feel like a zombie lately. 13 hours of sleep last night. Guess I needed it. It was nice to have a day off from school. I'm just trying to take life day by day. To surround myself with great people. I know if I don't, I'll go crazy.
Employee of the month? Free food? WIN.
Lalalalala.
I was in Willmar, MN Thursday-Sunday, visiting my dad. My whole family of five in a one bedroom apartment. Interesting. That's all I can say. But it was good to spend time with him. Seeing my family all together again reminded me of how much we rely on each other. It was heartbreaking to say goodbye to him. I wish he could have gotten in the car with us and went home. Because he belongs here.
The sad thing is, we all believed he'd be back in the next few weeks. He had an interview at a job in Duluth. He was told he was the number one candidate. That they were going to pick him. And that didn't surprise me. My dad is the most kind, helpful, dedicated and hardworking person. I admire him so much for it. So it was hard to come home from work last night and hear my mom say he didn't get the job. That they picked someone else. My dad cried. He rarely cries.
It's not fair to them. I'm not religious. Not in the least bit, but this is something I'm going to pray for.
And I miss you. Where are you? Two weeks. I guess I shouldn't be counting because that drives me crazy. I was sick the one time I got to talk to you and I don't even remember it. Usually you get on a few times a week. And the hurricanes....I hope you're alright. I shouldn't worry so much, but I miss you.
I feel like a zombie lately. 13 hours of sleep last night. Guess I needed it. It was nice to have a day off from school. I'm just trying to take life day by day. To surround myself with great people. I know if I don't, I'll go crazy.
Employee of the month? Free food? WIN.
Lalalalala.
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