Sundays @ BK

Top Five Hilarious/Interesting Things That Happened at Work Today:
5.) "I loved being the Persians on Age of Empires. They were badass. THEY HAD ELEPHANTS!" -Tanner when talking about Age of Empires and his past obsession with it
4.) The lady that came through drive thru with a bunch of mannequins with wigs on them in her back seat.
3.)The guy who came through drive thru that was most likely high that asked Tanner what weapon he'd use if there was a zombie apocalypse before placing his order.
2.) My manager dancing in her office to no music.
1.) The man that came through drive thru with a whole shit load of things in his car. In the back seat, a bag with a huge box of Trojan Ecstasy condoms and beef jerky in it. Interesting combination...

Ahhh, I love my job. xD

Observations;

I just started crying. I'm not really sure why. Life is good. Except for these annoying headaches and nagging thoughts of the past. I should be happy. I should be smiling all the time. I hate the mind I have. I dwell and worry on the most trivial things. I need to be stronger than this. Or I'll get eaten alive.

Worry

In general, I'm just worried about everybody lately...

TRUTH.

Mehhh.

STFU, Wind.

I'm trying to sleep.

Can it be June already? I'm way too lazy to do anything that involves high school.

Lego Harry Potter & Alex Pettyfer;

I Am Number Four. Alex Pettyfer, you didn't disappoint. Now you have to play Jace in the Mortal Instruments Series. PLEASE.

One of the best movies I've seen in a while. Possibly my new favorite. Interesting concept. Cool fight scenes. Cool actors. Badass moves. <3

I spent a majority of my day playing Lego Harry Potter. I zapped a wagon with my wand numerous times just to watch it run over Hagrid... HA HA HA...

Oh and cool nerdy guy in I Am Number Four who played Sam, YOU ARE ADORABLE. You finally shot an alien and the look on your face was amazing. CAN I MARRY YOU?


Blah, so many annoying headaches.
Goodnight.

I Don't Know...

Weird compliments I've received lately:
-I have nice hands and should be a hand model
-I'm confident
-I have nice shoulders
-I look like a Greek goddess

I'm exhausted. Today is a bunch of...confusion and madness.

Lalalalalalala

Finally the stress of my senior project is OVER. My panel loved my project and one of them even went as far as to say that she wanted to read it. (: They all seemed really interest and I got all 4's and 5's out of 5. They also wrote that I was very confident, enthusiastic and knew my topic well. I had an amazing sense of pride after that. Graduation here I come. Damn, it's coming fast...

I'm really tired tonight...

Reasons tonight's Glee sucked:

-Justin Bieber songs
-Justin Bieber haircuts
-No good plot line
-Sam is stupid
-Santana is stupid
-Not enough Puck
-No Darren Criss
-No Darren Criss
-No Darren Criss
-No Darren Criss
-No Darren Criss
-No Kurt D:


Enough said...

Only good thing I have to say: Brittany's lines are amazing.

Lalala Whopper Glitter Nyquil-Ruffles

Valentines Day. It didn't feel like it. Yeah I saw people carrying around heart shaped boxes and giant stuffed animals, but really, it wasn't Valentine's Day. It was Sydney's 18th birthday. That's what I celebrated. Although I'm nearly spazzing with anxiety at the fact that my senior project presentation is looming over me and I'm nervous beyond believe, today was good.

Driving Jam Sessions with Janis
Twin Moments
Cake decorating
Dinosaurs
Purple grass
Lalalala
Ke$ha
Tiredness
Stress
Matching bags
Maroon 5
Target Shenanigans
Freakin' Hamlet -__-
Anxiety
Anxiety
Anxiety
Hufflepuff Common Couch


Love my friends.
Love my life.

Apparently my name is now: Lalala Whopper Glitter Nyquil-Ruffles.

O:

Everything is all........BAM. Hitting me like a ton of bricks. Family issues and my sister's engaged?!

It's 1:35 a.m and less than three days until I present my senior project. I think I'm going to be sick...

You make my head spin;

My mom was gone for two days and came back today. Those two days were sort of blissful. I hate having to say that about my mom. Really, I do. I'm not one of those kids who is always talking about how much they hate their parents. My parents are actually really awesome. They care for their family, they believe in me and even though my dad only comes home on weekends because of his job, I believe we're a strong family.

My mood just crashed today. Probably because I knew she was coming home. That sounds horrible, but it's true. My mom is so unpredictable. One moment she's the world's most amazing mom and the next, I don't want to even live here anymore. She came home and within ten minutes after her arrival she had yelled at me 3 times because: a) somebody threw a soda can in the garbage, b) there was a blanket unfolded, and c) because i was trying to figure out what was wrong with my laptop because I couldn't use microsoft word or power point. Apparently when she leaves for two days we think we have free reign and can do whatever I want. Yes Mom, that is why I spent a lot of the time making things were clean and orderly, but you always find something wrong.

I don't understand why she acts this way. I know things are hard without my dad here and such, but this just isn't fair and it's not normal. Her mood changes so fast and I have no idea what to expect from her. It's too dangerous to tell her how I feel. She won't see it.

I haven't even told her the cool news about my senior project nor has she expressed any interest in it. It probably won't matter anyway. Because all she can concentrate on is the negative.

My sister's moving out soon and now Jacob and I are left with her...

My head is pounding so bad. I took five ibuprofen. And I don't give a shit.

Keystache

I'm kinda sorta a dork. <3

Life lately...

Bittersweet: Producing or expressing a mixture of pain and pleasure.

I woke up late today and was a half hour late to school. I got asked today if my senior project presentation could be video taped because it sounds that interesting.

You never truly realize what a real friendship is until you're sitting across from someone at a tiny tranquil restaurant on the edge of town getting constant refills of pepsi and coffee, talking about how crazy life is and having a conversation about what good music is with the assistant manager. It's moments like these that really make you appreciate the form of happiness known as simplicity.

Life.

Exhuastion. Goodnight.

One effed up to-do list

-Laundry
-Clean room
-Power point for senior project
-Reflective Essay for senior project
-Meet with advisor to get power point approved
-Arrange for laptop and projector for senior project
-Practice senior project presentation
-Get insulted numerous times in one day
-Read my entire novel
-Edit novel
Barely sleep
-Cry
-Get a microwave put in my room
Freak out
Freak out
Freak out
Freak out

Seriously, who puts a microwave in their daughter's room?

Well...

It's 2:22 a.m and I have school in the morning. Why am I still up? I'm not quite sure. I really don't have a reason to be. I redid my blog. Wow... At least I was somewhat productive? I'm going to be dead tomorrow.

Caleb Lovely, can I marry you? <3
Oh and you too Mark Salling.

New episode of Glee:
"Yeah well maybe you'll think it's funnier when I go all Tick Tock on yo face!"
-Puck <3

I should sleep...

You hate yourself so you break my heart;

I'm still not okay.
This still isn't okay with me.
I don't know when it will be.
Or if it ever will be.


I'm pretty much a failure lately. I'm so easily scared and paranoid. It doesn't take much to make me cry.

I miss what I never had, how fucked up is that?


What's there to say?
NO WAY.
I can't breathe.

Fuckkkkk.

Fatal hardware error my ass. Thanks DVR. Watching my episode of Vampire Diaries was what I really needed after a stupid day. Especially since my mom decided to be bipolar again and change her mind about letting me watch it and now I can't even do so.

Why was that what sent me over the edge?

Silence

I can't stand the silence
I'd honestly rather you just ramble
The tension is lingering in the air
It's making me crumble

I feel like a loser
Sitting here alone in my room
Staring at the ceiling
Fears and tears
And endless gloom

I want to scream
Or find anything to say
But I lack the words
And the voice
Silence is my choice

I want someone to reach out
And say anything that makes sense
Because I'm searching for the answers to my questions
In a world that has none

This blog makes no sense
I don't even know what I'm saying
So I guess it's time for me to stop

I am right, I swear I'm right!

"And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well. I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself."

TO DO LIST:
Everything.
Remember to breathe.


Why does sleeping scare me so much? I used to love the dark and the silence and now I need my ipod on when I fall asleep and the darkness almost scares me. I feel the most alone at that time and all the thoughts come then. I hate it... Refer to To Do List.