Chop my head off? Please?

50 hours when I clocked out today.
Damn.

Still got a migraine. That's nothing new. What pisses me off the most is that it won't leave. And I just got all of my ideas sorted out for this new plot and I really want to start writing. Every time I sit down to write, my head is throbbing and I just can't get the words to flow right. It's really pissing me off. My neck is swollen all the time. And I just want to scream. Either that, or chop my head off. I already suggested to one of my coworkers that he do so, but he said no because it'd get him arrested.

I just want it to go away. I want to have a clear head so I can sit down and right or enjoy the nice weather outside or times with my friends. Speaking of the weather, heat advisory tomorrow? If it's 95 degrees because of humidity I might just die at work, just sayin'. Or die in general, since you know, my house doesn't have air conditioning.

Seriously. All I want...is for my headache to disappear. And for things to be right for Jamie for once. Too much to ask? I guess so.

And you know what? I'm starting a project. I'm going to buy a freakin' journal and fill it with random shit. It doesn't have to look nice, doesn't have to be perfect. I want it to be messy and filled with thoughts, because that's what my mind is like: Chaos. IT WILL HAPPEN.

Anyway, my head is throbbing. I told my mom I'd sleep like three hours ago. Why do I fail? And why do I keep having nightmares?

Good question.