Headaches & Seniority;

It's crazy, being a senior. I got my senior project approved and as of right now I'm scheduled to present on February 16th, 2011. I can't believe on June 4, 2011 I'll be walking that stage. Being a senior is still scary. But it's a little bit less terrifying now that I'm figuring things out. College is still up in the air. I know I'm going. I know what I'm going for. But I don't know where I'm going. I'm too scared to travel off on my own. It's funny how much I've been thinking about life lately. How things that once seemed so important, don't affect me much anymore. Because I know what I want and who I am. And now when I hear things people are talking about, complaining about, or saying to one another, I stop and think about how stupid they are and shake my head. Because they're missing out. Sure it's a part of growing up, I went through it too. But being immature, stepping over others to get yourself noticed, always needing a boyfriend, starting rumors, treating people like shit, the name calling, the constant gossip. It's all pointless. There are so much important things in life. So many better people to surround yourself with. And I can only hope that those people who haven't gotten to the point I have, will. Someday.

My headaches are plentiful lately. I guess you could say they're getting on my nerves, but I know it's from a little extra stress. But surprisingly, I'm doing well handling things. I think. Well, for me, I'm doing well at least. I've got a job, I've been hanging out with some great new people, concentrating on myself a bit more, letting myself enjoy life. So I'm doing alright. Even if I miss my dad. <3

I missed you today. I rarely get to talk to you and I count on that little bit of time we have. And I missed it. I hope you're back tomorrow.

"Boy, I wish you were beside me, a positive reaction, more distance, more attraction, interaction, never ever felt like this before,"
-Electronic Lover by Breathe Electric