Changing

Life keeps changing and altering and twisting into something I don't recognize. Something I don't know anymore. I feel like I'm on spin cycle and I'm just tumbling around with everything else around me. I've got grad photos in less than an hour and I finally told myself I needed to blog. I've felt disconnected lately. From everything. Sometimes there's so much on my mind, I don't even know what to do. Let alone what thought to listen to first. My dad leaves in a month. He's going to start his new job in Wilmer, Minnesota. Of course he'll visit on weekends, but it's going to change our lives. Not having him here every night. But we're a strong family. We can handle it, right? There's so much to think about. When and if all of us will eventually move there. But I guess we're going to take things one at a time. Work out things as we go. All I know is...it's hard seeing my mother cry. Seeing my brother look lost at the thought of his dad not being here every night. We're going to get webcams and use skype to talk to him most nights. It's how my parents will say goodnight to each other. Seeing them trying to be strong and their love for each other, gives me hope. All I know is that in a month I'm a senior and everything's going to start changing. I don't know what direction my life is going in. I guess that's another thing I have to figure out along the way.

"I can't set my hopes too high because every hello ends with a goodbye." -Demi Lovato