Goodbye 2010;

So at midnight tonight, it will turn to 2011. Not only will I have trouble writing that on my papers at school, but I'll have trouble believing it. This year always seemed so far away. I was always hearing "Class 2011!" and all of that. But...I'm graduating in June. Why does that seem so hard to believe?

My goals for 2011?
Have more amazing times with my best friends and enjoy the time we have before graduation.
Pass my senior project!
Go to a cool concert?
Edit my novel I wrote!
Enjoy my first year of college!
Get over you...

I'm looking forward to you 2011, mostly because you hold so many promises. 2010 has been the year that has really shaped me into who I am, and now I'm determined to make this year the best!

You were just fine, I was holding on;

You guys have each other. You talk often. You get to tell each other you love one another. Maybe I'm being selfish, but you're taking that for granted. While I'm sitting here waiting for someone that will never return, I've given up. And what are you guys doing? Fighting over nothing. Over a misunderstanding.

It's bullshit.

You two were going to last from the beginning. And I knew it, but wouldn't admit it. You really were right Ayana. We were hopeless. We shouldn't have even tried.

So if you guys are supposed to be standing at the end, why are you fighting like immature idiots?

Answer me that.

Too long.

It's officially three months.

Congratulations, I believe you're actually gone.

Christmas Eve

It's Christmas Eve and I'm still having trouble eating. It's starting to drive me mad. And I really really really hate the taste of pepto bismol. Just sayin'

But I'm trying to keep in mind that next week is going to be great. There's another three day retreat at Aubrey's house with all of my favorite people and this time it's Harry Potter themed. So I'm going to Aubwarts! (: I'm really excited. These people are the ones I should have been friends with all along and the only reason I am sad is because we just met this year and soon we're graduating. So guess what? I'm going to enjoy my time with them as much as I can.

And for the next two days, I'm going to enjoy time with my family. Even though holidays are typically awkward for me and sometimes maddening at my house, I'm going to enjoy it. That's my goal.

Ramen & Anime;

Still sick. I eat about once a day. It sucks.

I've spent the whole day in bed with ramen and my laptop watching Spiral. <3 I feel like a loser, but I guess that's okay. I can't believe it's almost 2011. I'm going to graduate come June.

Wow. I think that's all I can really say right now.

It'll be a year on January 23rd since Jazzie made the site and since we all really became a group; a family. But one person's missing.

Screw him.