Spring...

It smells like spring today.
And it smells nasty.
Just sayin'

I got my shoes from Jessie today and they're amazing. <3 Purple, key, lock, Ke$ha. <3

Headacheheadacheheadache.

I have an important question:

Q: What junior hears an announcement about all seniors needing to report to the gym, goes to the gym just to skip homeroom and gets in the senior picture even though she's not supposed to be and then says her excuse will be 'I thought it was a meeting for juniors and seniors'?

A: Courtney Hill.

Seriously?

Time to go to work. First time this week. Yay?

Imma go drive to work wearing my sunglasses and blasting music.
Sounds good.

XP

I DON'T WANT TO TAKE THESE DAMN SLEEPING PILLS.


They made me feel hazy all day.
This isn't solving my problem, Mom.
Thanks.

Not Fair;

Someone tell me why the most amazing people out there who truly care about others, who have great ideas to share with the world, who are genuinely nice, get the short end of the stick? Why does the bad happen to them? I see this everyday in my friend Jamie. I wish I could give her strength and take away all the pain in her life. The way she's been forced to grow up so fast, the way she is ridiculed and what she has to deal with, the spontaneity of daily life, is not fair to her. Her life isn't stable. I couldn't live without stability.

Sitting in the hospital waiting room with her today after school, awaiting news on her mother who possibly broke her ribs and shoulder has taught me that even the seemingly strong break. I saw Jamie cry.

If God exists, why isn't he doing something? People are suffering. And it's just not fair.

I Dropped the Bomb...

The 'Anxiety' Bomb.

In response, I got a sleeping pill and an order to sleep. Maybe I do need it.

"I don't want to drug you up. That's the last resort. Drugs aren't always the answer."

If I'm getting rest and trying to find ways to de-stress and I still feel like this in a few weeks, I go to the doctor.

Guess we'll see.

I'm ready for bed anyway. I'm done with today.

Fail...

I think I grind my teeth when I'm stressed?

No All Time Low Concert for me for my 18th birthday.
Agh, I knew this would happen.