You were just fine, I was holding on;

You guys have each other. You talk often. You get to tell each other you love one another. Maybe I'm being selfish, but you're taking that for granted. While I'm sitting here waiting for someone that will never return, I've given up. And what are you guys doing? Fighting over nothing. Over a misunderstanding.

It's bullshit.

You two were going to last from the beginning. And I knew it, but wouldn't admit it. You really were right Ayana. We were hopeless. We shouldn't have even tried.

So if you guys are supposed to be standing at the end, why are you fighting like immature idiots?

Answer me that.

Too long.

It's officially three months.

Congratulations, I believe you're actually gone.

Christmas Eve

It's Christmas Eve and I'm still having trouble eating. It's starting to drive me mad. And I really really really hate the taste of pepto bismol. Just sayin'

But I'm trying to keep in mind that next week is going to be great. There's another three day retreat at Aubrey's house with all of my favorite people and this time it's Harry Potter themed. So I'm going to Aubwarts! (: I'm really excited. These people are the ones I should have been friends with all along and the only reason I am sad is because we just met this year and soon we're graduating. So guess what? I'm going to enjoy my time with them as much as I can.

And for the next two days, I'm going to enjoy time with my family. Even though holidays are typically awkward for me and sometimes maddening at my house, I'm going to enjoy it. That's my goal.

Ramen & Anime;

Still sick. I eat about once a day. It sucks.

I've spent the whole day in bed with ramen and my laptop watching Spiral. <3 I feel like a loser, but I guess that's okay. I can't believe it's almost 2011. I'm going to graduate come June.

Wow. I think that's all I can really say right now.

It'll be a year on January 23rd since Jazzie made the site and since we all really became a group; a family. But one person's missing.

Screw him.

Toast is evilllll;

I haven't eaten anything all day. I don't think it will be long before I'm tearing apart the cupboards in my kitchen for food.

Total food I've eaten in three days:
-A bowl of soup
-Two pieces of toast

"Dude, if the toast has mold on it, you're not supposed to eat it. DUH." -Caitlin Pendleton

I got my period today and had barely anything with me at school and when I got in my car to go home to do so during my release time, my car had a flat tire. Win, huh? Especially since my self family teacher had been talking just two hours earlier about how she got a flat tire right after her daughter did. Chain reaction? Maybe.

All I know is I'm starving and tired and I really really really don't wanna go to work. But I get my secret santa gift, so hopefully that's cool. I've never wanted to eat a full course meal so badly in my life.

Hopefully when I do decide to finally eat, I don't get sick. Because I either have to be miserable sick or miserable hungry. I know I'm not gonna last much longer like this.

BLAH.